Not Ashamed

2 Samuel 6:16 "As the ark of the LORD was entering the City of David, Michal daughter of Saul watched from a window. And when she saw King David leaping and dancing before the Lord, she despised him in her heart."

This weekend was an incredible encouragement to my spirit. I felt God confirming me and strengthen me to take my rightful place in the kingdom. Yesterday morning in worship the presence of God filled the sanctuary with His glory. As the worship team praised God from the depths of these soul the power of God began to squeeze me. "like a fire shut up in my bones" kind of squeeze. The Lord gave Troy a song and he sang a new song to the Lord. Then Ant made a statement that set me free. He said, what would your worship look like if you had 30 days to live? That was it.

I could not contain it anymore and I didn't want to. I got off the altar, threw my heels under the first row and let out a war cry from my inner most being. I jumped, I yelled, I spun, I went crazy for my God. See I have much to praise Him for.

Later, Isaiah said one of the kids was laughing as I worshiped and I asked him how he felt about it. He said he was a little embrassed cause he didn't know why I worshiped this way. It was ok if his brothers did it, but why was mama? I realized I have not worshiped this way for years and Isaiah has not see me freely worship, boldly and uninhibited.

I began to tell him all the wonderful things that I have to be thankful for. All that God has done for me. Then, I asked him what has God done for you? He wasn't sure, so I told him the miracle of my pregnancy with him, the miracle of his birth, how God healed him completely in five days and he has no side effects from a collapsed lung and meconium aspiration. I asked him," how we got Leia?" " I prayed for her to come for a long time", he replied. As we counted his blessing he felt excited that God has worked in his life and that he has something to be thankful for too.

I will never be ashamed of being crazy for God. On the contrary, it is the greatest compliment I could receive. Not only did God receive my praise but he gave me an opportunity to show how God is active and alive in our lives. Lord, thank you for this teachable moment with Isaiah and thank for you setting me free.